Shutdown: 4A study term

by williec

This term has been very unfruitful. I picked up League of Legends after an abstinence streak from DotA that lasted 4 good years. This kinda makes me sad. I’ve also lost a lot of motivation, especially with books and academia. It really isn’t the gaming that’s causing this. It is more just a lack of willpower to carry on doing something that seems so pointless. There’s a whole new post graduation world out there, with new and relevant things to learn.

I’ve really taken a liking to software development. It’s funny because in first year I remember believing that I could never picture myself sitting in front of a computer all day typing away. Yet here I am now, not knowing what else I would rather be doing.

I also remember having long-term plans for myself to run a self-grown start-up right after graduation. It’s not that I haven’t been trying. I have been working hard on these things over the past years but nothing seems to have gained any valuable traction at all. With only 8 months left to graduation, this once long-term goal and deadline is suddenly approaching and hitting the reality of being unattainable. Such a realization kills the motivation to carry on pushing.

Visions of life after university used to be so bright and optimistic. But as the moment slowly approaches I realize how clueless I really am and that’s OK. Engineers are trained problem solvers; we figure things out, eventually.